Do I Dare? Do I Dare? Disturb the Universe?
– The Love Song of J. Prufrock, by T.S. Eliot
a poem of mine [before i knew of the t.s. eliot poem or frank turner], circa 2014?
Broken Boulevards & Winding Dreams
Deny for oh so long,
I can’t hear myself anymore;
longing for a love lost,
never had, but dreamt of.
And this is where I stand,
sun shining, birds a twittering;
Lost in the beauty I should be enjoying
and the waves keep rolling.
To shout, to disturb the wind,
Lo, i just don’t know,
if any thing would, but come of it?
No! quiet, I shall observe.
pass, evermore …
Deep-Shame thinking, of being unwanted at best, and a burden at worst …