Month: June 2022

sarahland, by samantha cohen

DISCLAIMER: THE FOLLOWING THESIS IS WRONG [in the end], BUT CONTAINS ELEMENTS FOR A BETTER THESIS. SCIENCE WITHOUT FEAR OF BEING WRONG.

It’s a rule of life that we can, and should, learn from everyone. There are solemn and serious things we can learn from quacks and crooks, there are philosophies taught us by fools, there are lessons in faithfulness and justice brought to us by chance and by those we chance to meet. Everything is in everything. In certain particularly lucid moments of contemplation, like those of early afternoon when I observantly wander through the streets, each person brings me a novelty, each building teaches me something new, each placard has a message for me. My silent stroll is a continual conversation, and all of us – men, buildings, stones, placards and sky – are a huge friendly crowd, elbowing each other with words in the great procession of Destiny. Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet
https://ivananew.blogspot.com/2020/09/quote.html

media that came to mind:
The Rules of Attraction
Wetlands
South Park – Mr. Garrison’s Fancy New Vagina
Chasing Amy
Nuet #1

Compare Nirvana to Amanda Palmer
– that is the thesis of the review –
Nirvana (and Grunge in general) = boo-hoo, life sucks, do drugs, and kill yourself.
– or be gay, and thus self-select to not reproduce; or escape via sexual addiction.
[many lgbqt+ are in loving relationships – no homophobia here, power to them, power to love.]
Amanda Palmer – yeah, life sucks, get over it and enjoy the ride.

One is grating, one is beautiful.
Beauty. I walked around during the Gay Pride Parade.
the one thing most lacking – Beauty.
what I saw was queer. [edit insert: That being said, at the parade there was plenty of gaiety – and support through numbers is well and good; but a lot of overt sexuality – this is what i found queer ….]
[from wiki: “Entering the English language in the 16th century, queer originally meant “strange”, “odd”, “peculiar”, or “eccentric”. It might refer to something suspicious or “not quite right”, or to a person with mild derangement or who exhibits socially inappropriate behaviour.^[3][8] The Northern English expression “there’s nowt so queer as folk“, meaning “there is nothing as strange as people”, employs this meaning”]
Sarahland.

I grew up in Metro Detroit. No one I knew called it suburban Detroit. I have heard and used, the suburbs of Detroit, but never suburban. She now lives in Los Angeles – I am not surprised, having read this book – she is clearly a good fit for a certain part of LA – the book belies a decent understanding of the seedy parts of LA – porn studio adjacent brothels, comes to mind (in a plastic city).
the fact that I am reading this book [as the introductory book of a book club entitled New + Noteworthy] in a book store in Saint Petersburg, in the (free in comparison to california and michigan) State of florida. I ask why?

I knew and was Sam Cohen, growing up. There, but for the Grace of God, go I.
[side thought – if woman are equals, I assume alimony does not exist anymore – is this true? – No, the supreme court ruled in 1979 that alimony is gender neutral. Yo, that is stupid! I am not surprised, however, with stupid supreme court decisions – for i am a lawyer, not b/c of roe v. wade]

My sub-thesis: parts of homosexuality operate as a cult
– I read an article a few years ago, on this very topic. It was very illuminating. A woman was brought up by shitty parents, in an actual religious cult. She went to university, and experimented and fell in with homosexuals. She eventually worked through her childhood traumas (first the cult stuff, then the parent stuff, then I believe she unearthed blocked childhood trauma from incest/pedo shit – this eventually led to the discovery that she had unrealistic mental triggers of all men, when really she just had realistic fear-based learned instinct/habits towards the shitty men in her immediate environment growing up.

This is the way the book was written: free association – i.e., a deep dive, psychologically! Look, what pops up in my head! The following movie ……..

The movie is called Nuit #1 (french for night). Why? Because the movie opens up with a 20 minute sex scene.
That is what reading Sarahland is like – except it doesn’t move on from that, it is ossified sexuality without the maturity of moving towards higher ideals – Beauty, Love, Acceptance.

Ah!- that is the big one, acceptance. People just want to be accepted – guess what, the world owes you nothing! The only person that has to fully, unconditionally accept me is me.
– here’s the rub, there is only one class of people that deserve unconditional acceptance and love – and that is a child from a parent. That does not mean that the child can do and be anything, however. It means that the parent comes from and with the understanding of unconditional love. That ends at 18 (13 in the jewish culture, is my understanding – bah/bar mitzvah being the cult-ural demarcation of adult-hood therein).
[as a side note, fuck the cult-ural protection of male genital mutilation]
fuck, male genital mutilation is akin to castration – what a bullshit practice that ruins sex for both partners – which is why sex becomes perverted. See pornography. Why is it that pornhub.com is free? Because it gathers information on your perversions to better sell shit to you. Why is the internet ubiquitous – loneliness, porn, and originally, free/stolen music.

By the Way – why is it that lgbqt+ main tool is to play the victim card? It’s the same thing you see that jewish comedian in ukraine play (zelensky) – it’s the holocaust game plan (read industry) ……. same victim card that is used for “holodomyr” …

disclaimer: i am not anti-semitic, i am anti-zionist. if you don’t know the difference, again, history is super interesting!- history as taught in schools is just propaganda!

so let’s get personal:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Canton,_Michigan – the township I grew up in.
Excerpts:
Canton Township is Michigan’s second most-populated township (after Clinton Township) and ninth most-populated municipality overall. The township is ranked as the 96th highest-income place in the United States with a population of 50,000 or more and is also consistently ranked as one of the safest cities in the state and nation. In 2015, the township was ranked as the 29th safest city in the United States.

When you read that, what were you thinking?
because I will tell you the reality of growing up in such a place – dull, dull, dull.
It could be somewhat interesting, but no.
My mother’s morning routine:
wake up [more accurately, decide to get out of bed after tossing and turning for most of the night], rotely say prayers while on an exercise bike (she did not ride a bicycle outside), then turn on the “local news” = i.e., what did black criminals do last night in Detroit?
so, the mindset of fear pervaded her life [and thus my childhood] – in literally “one of the safest cities in the state and nation. In 2015, the township was ranked as the 29th safest city in the United States.” There were woods behind our house. I was forbidden to go into the woods (not safe). We had a room with beautiful windows (bay window?) that looked out onto the woods. That room was for guests only. Me and my brother ended up on folding chairs in a corner of the basement in front of a screen.

fyi, Canton is what it is

Here’s the thing, by the time I got to the University of Michigan, I still had no “me”. What I was, was a derivation of the character in the HBO series “Dream On” [which I watched as a child for the female breasts that was a weekly standard on that show]. [is it because i received such a lack of nourishment from my mother that a return to a breast is – wait, shit –

So in the book Sarahland, she revisits a womb; that short story, I argue, is mis-titled : “Dream Palace”.

https://www.facebook.com/groups/thefreebreathers/permalink/699517338013963

The last line of that post, yo!:
“When you know who you are, you will not fear that which is earthly in nature.”
– John Doeson, common law conversations
stay with me …
at one point in the book, the only worthwhile thing I re(a)d:
Sarah had a desire to do two things in North Dakota: go check out some gay club, and stick her hands in dirt and pull up a bulb of wild garlic.

What a thought, get your hands dirty!
maybe, go visit a stable, and shovel horse shit in the middle of a hot summer day for a few hours! Maybe then Sarah will disabuse herself of her childish dream of getting a pony like all the other rich girls in Bloomfield Hills! Maybe?!?
– like, I know it’s called animal husbandry, but that does not mean you should be in love with a horse-man. Early in the book, she wrote that liking horses is just a metaphor for sex.
Or, maybe Sarah’s perversions extend to furry sex, so she can pretend she is being taken by a centaur? Or, does she want a horse to fuck her, ala the propaganda used to slander Catherine the Great? by the way, I have a friend who likes horses. Guess what he does? https://www.tbnweekly.com/seminole_beacon/article_d009b960-7c1c-50fd-8082-ba314efcb19d.html – volunteers at a horse farm. What an adult does.

“He had the same trouble as all intellectuals-he was ineffectual. He knew too many things, and they confused him. He needed all sorts of gimmicks to steam him up, help him make up his mind.” – Celine, Journey to the End of the Night.

I’m not writing that out of condescension. I am writing that as a once insufferable intellectual myself; and one who still has to battle against that ennui that bubbles up via – well, via stimulus meant to instill anxiety. Work, Money, Rent, Inflation, MEDIA.

Media, man.

https://harbar.blogspot.com/2011/01/why.html

What a rant, that is to say, Sam Cohen is still working on her PhD. She is still in academia.

Sarahland starts with schooling, and the likely school she references seems an awful like the University of Michigan. That said, Rutgers has joined the BigTen recently; or perhaps Northwestern?

Jewish femme?
I am familiar with femme fatale: a seductive woman that harms/kills those around her.
but femme?– a lesbian with feminine traits (v butch), often exaggerated.
by the way, “Sarahland” contains many references to JAP – so self using the term Jewish American Princess is fairly interesting … and that a stereotype exists for “those” jews who display their wealth ostentatiously. Sam is not a self-styled JAP, or is she? [the same phenomenon exists as a “disney princess”. disney = worship the rich! ]

A national survey of female homosexuals was published in the Journal of Consulting and Clinical Psychology which found that 75 percent of the approximate 2,000 respondents had pursued psychological counseling of some type, many for treatment of long-term depression or sadness.

yikes, this next part is on the “First Sarah” – the old testament book
Sam writes that all she wants is to return to Mother Nature, and run around and have sex with woman and that be the end all … I don’t know, return to a time where and when Eve was alone with nature. I don’t necessarily blame her – I’ve been there.

Sam Cohen’s Sarahland can be summed up with this :
it is the de-ranged work of a tortured soul; this was not written with the delicate help of a muse; rather, this was from the free association that marijuana and alcohol offer a writer.
It is Charles Bukowski as a depressed, powerless queer, Jewish femme still in school.
– both are not worth my time.
the same way a book about my sister the serial killer is dumb to read:

at the end of the day,
what was noteworthy of sarahland?
– just how bad that book was.

Bonus tracks?

By the way, new woman’s world – H-H-H!

We hate that which we do not comprehend:

New thesis: this book is all about sea-men (dolphins and seahorses!)

I.e.; fuck w/ nature!?; H-h-h : she wants the toxic goo in the end = and a child emerges without a man; there is toxic goo (semen) … ugh … a gerald dolphin,

or :

We, as humans, have the power to teach ourselves how to become that which we set our sights on ……

https://www.bloomberg.com/news/articles/2022-06-22/shipping-costs-soar-as-russian-fallout-upends-global-fuel-flows

bonus tracks:

mourning glory‽

the article builds on the previous … a good launching off point.

https://www.levyinstitute.org/pubs/wp_698.pdf

here’s the thing; when amounts get that expansive — one tips from reality to phantasy. Where and when does financial modeling and projection cease to be a useful construct (map/relation of money to life set to time) ? ? ?

Rather, what is the central loco-motion that is occurring?–
i would posit that the story is now driving humans to act in accordance with the narrative–
this is analogous to “holy” crusades, self-flagellation,
or
drinking the kool-aid. Self-directed madness.
and the flip-side
a level of acceptance of one and all (pride month!)
not through emotional growth and maturity,
but through imposed politically correct thinking
a strict ideological adherence
to saying the “right” thing and acting accordingly

now is not the time to fear
like a petulant child ready to lose his favourite toys
[big fancy house with 24/7 HVAC? Shitty designed cities in the US necessitating two cars in every driveway, roads and parking lots everywhere? Airports, Air-travel? Food shipped thousands of miles? FIRE based economy? Electronics? Electricity?]

I tell ya, I watch a video like the one above–
and my first instinctual response?– be quiet and don’t upset the powers that be … but also, like, what do you expect?
That right there, is the inculcated belief I was indoctrinated with in my youth —
via propaganda —
propagated through media, education, religion, family …

unions are not the enemy;
they are far more part of the solution, that being communal relations.
What I don’t understand, in this day and age – why frequent Apple, Starbucks, WalMart at all?
convenience comfort conformity routine
cccr
whoops, party time!- that should be cccp. my memory failed my witticism
but, like, why aren’t there local worker owned coffee shops everywhere –
like, find a bean wholesaler, get a cheap roaster, and fill a room with kitschy items and wifi; voila [granted the others are slightly different, but the economy seems to be rapidly evolving into …

and that brings me back to ukraine, europe, russia, china.
union busting, people busting, and power (although i repeat myself)
it’s the only way to truly join up the western world with the ideals of china …
and reigning in the “gas station”
controlling the breadbaskets

and that is the crux;
western comforts are not because of some “specialness” of western civilization.
au contraire, western comforts are built on the suffering of others (along with the exploitation of resources)
and, unquestionably, the inability to see that suffering (externalities!) built into the foundations of the system itself.

https://www.cnn.com/2022/06/15/china/china-zhengzhou-bank-fraud-health-code-protest-intl-hnk/index.html
shades of the canadian trucker convey, eh?

https://www.npr.org/2021/01/05/953515627/facial-recognition-and-beyond-journalist-ventures-inside-chinas-surveillance-sta

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Give thanks to God, for making the necessary things simple, and the complex things unnecessary. – skovoroda

we are the dreamers;

the real duty of the human being is not to question, question, question;
it is the affirmation of self beyond questioning

if it feels backwards, it might just be [driving forward by looking at the rear view mirror! – marshall mcluhan] fair warning, this is a bumpy ride –

clarity through the haze …

https://mellob33.substack.com/p/solving-the-freedom-tyranny-puzzle?s=r

thusly, trending in ways not harmonious with spirit;
coalesce, and move forward …

https://newsinteractive.post-gazette.com/ukraine-money-laundering/

well, i read some of that noise yesterday – out of general curiousity more than anything; i.e., how does an oligarch go about re-purposing (stealing/embezzlement/laundering) 5% of Ukrainian GDP/IMF loans –
turns out, with big balls –
i.e., the united States has a spigot, and expects people to take a cut. Take too large a cut, and now the united States has leverage. It is how a war can be staged – the outcome will largely be coordinated; it is a symbiotic dance as between shifting narratives – the united States’ aura and myths are finally reaching critical mass (?- covid, war, inflation?) inside the united States.
the corollary is the Russian side: the cut the oligarchs take on that side is via natural gas transit – own the transit companies, steel mills, and banks – viola, one controls large swaths of people [as a secondary effect?- i.e., cascading]
See https://www-welt-de.translate.goog/print/die_welt/wirtschaft/article131474811/Der-kalte-Krieg-der-Oligarchen.html?_x_tr_sl=auto&_x_tr_tl=en&_x_tr_hl=en&_x_tr_pto=wapp

The article has an interesting extrapolation – steel mills were run to the ground in the united States by the ukrainian oligarchs (Ihor kolomoyski, et al.). Azov steel. A by-product of the steel industry is supposedly neon; the two largest producers of neon are [were] russia and ukraine. Neon gas is necessary in the manufacturing of semiconductors – i assume the inventory of semiconductors is very healthy – and likely located in a stable place, say, the opposite of a tiny island claimed by the most populous, industrious, communistic country in the world … nah, that is speculative negative thinking, man …

the following is not about trudeau, but putin – that putin who can do as he pleases with country 404…

https://gilliankrussell.files.wordpress.com/2015/07/epistemicviciousness.pdf – head in the sand – https://boriquagato.substack.com/p/why-public-health-experts-never-want?s=r

https://www.ucm.es/data/cont/docs/107-2016-02-17-Fallacious%20Arguments.pdf

As a dog returneth to his vomit, so a fool returneth to his folly:

operation clear the borderlands of ukrainians?
how much different is operation barbarossa from operation maidan, special military operations of russia, ukrainian oligarchic dependence, ukraine joining nato, the donbass, ukrainians fleeing to all parts of europe (never to return) …
not exactly; more along the lines of :

https://drjohnsblog.substack.com/p/thoughts-about-money-and-food?s=r :
“The real aim is not to help Ukrainians (nor, for that matter, to destroy Russia) but to exorcise the recurring nightmare of the “Lehman shock”, which today would plunge us into chaos, wiping out the thin veneer of monetary affluence that prevents us from staring into the abyss…“

JUST DON’T TAKE IT PERSONALLY!

ukraine is a nebulous concept; of what import is it to my life? the delusional draw of acceptance, whose only source springs internally or not at all

fyi; this is the history of the place:
“Although this defeat left the Rus’ principalities at the mercy of invaders, the Mongol [now “muscovites”] or Tartar forces retreated and did not reappear for thirteen years [17], during which time the princes [oligarchs] of Rus’ went on quarreling and fighting as before, until they were startled by a new and much more formidable invading force.” – https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mongol_invasion_of_Kievan_Rus%27
2005 – it becomes obvious to Russia (and anyone with critical thinking skills) that elections are fair game [US and Europe pressure Kyiv into a “do-over” because Yanukovich “cheated by having more votes”. i.e., orange revolution
2014 – coup. i.e., something to do with integrity, allegedly?
but see: “Less than two weeks before the March 16 2014 Referendum, at the height of the crisis in Ukraine, Russia’s Prime Minister Dmitry Medvedev ordered the state-road building corporation Avtodor, or “Russian Highways” “to create a subsidiary company that would oversee the building of a bridge across the Kerch Strait”.“
2022 – russia invades:

Looking in the other direction:
Russia has a lot of land [hard to empha-size the amount of land – 12 time zones!], and a portion of that land is next to China – the land is also extremely sparsely populated –
without the aid of the ukrainian people and economy, and worse, the active buzzing of b.s. fan-boy neo-nazi’s shelling that donbass, and Russia must be thinking to itself a weak Russia does nothing to curtail China
– the elephant in the world is China, followed by India.

This is where the mongol invasion is once again important to bear in mind.
The stereo-typical Russian mind broods in suffering, paranoia, fear (?). Chess is battle.
China and India seek peace!
yes, but what kind of peace?

Covid is the canary in the coal mine –
and shanghai is where the bird died in China – 2 months of lockdown for a few cases of Covid? – that is the wrong direction; same as putin in the aforementioned corbett podcast link.

bonus tracks (?) [aren’t they at the start‽]:

https://www.azquotes.com/author/1426-Otto_von_Bismarck :

comment: this is all well known. the study of european history, and particularly military history, makes the above akin to : “no shit, sherlock” [pragmatism usually does?].

that is where i have landed; this war was fomented on both sides, since the majority of people, in the past and now, don’t want war – for most people are not driven insane to the point of human sacrifice for greed [is that a safe assumption?— it seems less and less true nowadays ? or is this more a manifestation of media? likely the latter, but that has always been the case? ]

what percentage of people go along to get along? the elephant in the room, indeed. which is what politics is: agitation of the edges for attention ? whatever, politics and war are levers of power; time has not changed this … and will not (?)

a book review of slaughterhouse five – kurt vonnegut

Kilgore Trout – trout is a fish, found in schools … Kill. Gore. School.
[addendum – a play on the “KILROY WAS HERE” meme from WWII?]
that is, if you want to get to the core of things in a curt manner. Curt [I] VannaGut.

“So what is it? What did we do wrong? We have over-socialized ourselves. We moved into the cities, lived on top of eachother, talked too much, made too many rules, went to school too long. Now we have added TV and the internet to that, and we are over-saturated, like an ant that has eaten too much apple cider. We are permanently buzzed on society, and cannot turn off, or even turn down, the superego. The superego is hypertrophied, constantly flexed like some strange bodybuilder, and the instincts are crushed under its bulk. We hear a constant patter of “I can’t do that” or “I must do that”. That is the cataleptic channel. The orders are so constant and so loud and so contradictory that the body and mind simply shut down at last. If we are not in some brainless routine, we are lost.” – http://mileswmathis.com/paris.html

Committee on Social Thought – Jew candles and lamps, I tell ya! [p.10]
Dresden, History, Stage, Gallery – whose story?- billy pilgrim (billy-boy on a pilgrimmage?)
stage – like that of Cinderella, put on by the british – disney – broken arm, condescending
gallery – a picture is worth a thousand words [especially if you can “frame” it correctly] – shetland pony and all! Curt paints the picture, do you have eyes to see?
– welcome to the theatre of the absurd, where war is painted just as fantastically as science fiction [and I’ll throw in the 60’s riots]

what science fiction – NASA (to the moon!), nuclear (unclear) weapons –
FEAR – fear Russia, but she is a paper tiger, but buy weapons and join NATO [as explained by noam chomsky]

seed chaos, dependence ; US to the rescue! (Elon Musk to the rescue!)

“When you are living your life as if it belonged to another person—another person far far below you, shiny and simplified and automatic, almost to the point of being inert—then you are living right.” – http://mileswmathis.com/paris.html [the life as sold to the average person from the super-ego; the culture at hand]

things ain’t perty, if numbers are to be believed.

https://boriquagato.substack.com/p/the-best-kind-of-virtue-signaling?s=r

focus, priorities;

1st day of june:

  to roll with the tide; the immensity of the ocean I have not felt for too long- 
the humble feeling of not being able to directly control anything but the narration.
  that leaves the feeble attempt to see things clearly, 
     [garbage in, garbage out] to see things clearly, again, starts at the foundation;
 cleanse the senses, sharpen the mind, 
    let go of the pre-conceptions; be-aware of old patterns returning !
  most importantly, re-mem-ber what the goal is , how to pro-seed.
now is the start, again and again, the s-tart, st-art, star-t...

addendum, 03.VI.22:

the explanation for the race riots was in the book:
easy to overlook, because it was framed as german propaganda –
MLK, blown away – why?
it wasn’t for the race riots, it wasn’t for black awareness …
and perhaps my history is shady (as in close to non-existent),
but wasn’t he blown away for pivoting to poverty from race?

the excerpt of propaganda from the american turned german –
that argument was factually accurate, albeit for nefarious purposes –
the germans were not harbingers of equality, opportunity, freedom, wealth;
quite the opposite, if you were slavic …
i digress

in the united states, there was just as much propaganda and [1]

is free-will a by-product of Narration?– and even then,
an accident of delusion?
— that is, to say, free-will is a shared delusion that is brought into being by way of the delusion itself‽

that sounds a lot like a petitio principii, or circular reasoning [i can’t seem to remember the exact term I am looking for here, it seems to consistently allude me– tearicle ? – ]

[1] howard campbell (junior): “America is the wealthiest nation on Earth, but its people are mainly poor, and poor Americans are urged to hate themselves … It is in fact a crime for an American to be poor, even though America is a nation of poor. … Americans, like human beings everywhere, believe many things that are obviously untrue….”

time is illusory; fluid and based on [shared?] perspective

racism is a red herring; it shifts focus off of class warfare and unto division (from divide and conquer) in the lower classes. It has been such a resounding success in the united States, that it was effectively outsourced to europe; see muslim immigration; or, more likely “latinizing” europe? [monroe doctrinesque]

of what matter, to someone located in florida? very little, indeed.
freedom has always been a construct of language and perspective as well?

a necessary corollary of narration, and thus, what exactly?

bringing it together

the crusade – the book is brothers karamazov written by celine about kurt’s experience in dresden …
that may not be clear
vonnegut wrote the book in Celine’s style (Journey to the End of the Night link below!), weighing heavy topics of society, unbound in Brothers Karamazov. That is the structure of the book. the motif is american sci-fi.

the question is; execution‽

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what is the defining feature of western european / united states / chinese ?
– obey authority, authority is science , science is your god –
it is a management system
the same conclusion always – unplug, live

What is Time?

https://harbar.blogspot.com/2012/05/journey-to-end-of-night.html

yeah, i get it …

https://harbar.blogspot.com/2014/05/136-or-hope-springs-eternally.html

vonnegut.

So it goes.

https://ivananew.blogspot.com/2020/07/tick-tock.html

bonus tracks: